Searching for Serenity

Finally at peace with life. The pages of “Cloudburst” take me away. 

“The world is divided into two kinds of people, the gullible and the deceptive. It’s only good and sensible self-defense to be distrusting and be a little deceptive yourself. This isn’t paradise yet. We’re always in one danger or another no matter where we are.”

Cloudburst - V.C. Andrews 

Doesn’t it just hurt you when you’ve made up your mind to give one person your all but they don’t know how to give you their all? I know how to love but it’s like people get intimidated when it seems too good to be true. I say accept what’s coming your way instead of pulling away. Don’t ever run from happiness because it’s some people like myself that wants just that- to be happy. 

Since I was a child- when I was forced to pray every night, I always prayed for the same two things- to find true love and a friend who is like a sister. I know I’m still young and I shouldn’t rush true love but when you’ve gave your heart so many times just to have it battered in so many people hands you lose faith and it’s hard to believe that any good will ever come your way. Some times I believe that in my past life I was deprived and had hard times, which is why I’m having such a hard life. I don’t know, just thoughts that run across my mind from time to time. May God be with me and show me what it is like to truly be loved.